At Nommo
Writing Workshop
New Orleans, LA
KIS.list: MAY 2002, Week 24
I was
rejected from the 2nd MFA program, the one I really wanted
to attend. I also did NOT receive the grant I wanted. Luckily,
before I got home and saw these rejections, I called the director
of the writing program in New Orleans, as my friends and family
suggested. The director's response was honest and insightful.
He said the readers-who read and rate the work of applicants-are
the faculty. They are looking for writers they want to work
with and they are predicting what kind of thesis each of the
writers will produce, b/c /they will have to advise the writer
on that thesis. He says they are not an experimental bunch,
but he believes if something experimental came in and it was
really good, the student would be accepted into the program.
He suggested the next time I apply to school I (1) apply to
a lot of schools (about 10 or 12) because the programs are
SO subjective. He said it could be that my work didn't rise
to the top of the pile b/c there were so many submissions
that were better than mine, but it could just as easily be
that my work didn't speak to the faculty and so they don't
want to work with me. And (2) he suggested I look at the faculty
at the school where I'm applying, not just to see if I want
to work with them, but to judge whether or not they would
want to work with me. I could either submit work that falls
in line with the instructor's work or I could only apply to
schools whose faculty reflects my writing style.
I am
very happy I spoke with this man, because he gave me a structure
to put my rejections in. When I think about the stories I
submitted-the longest one was about fornicating animal gods
and the mortals they toy with, and it employed an experimental
format-I can see some traditionalist not even knowing how
to relate to it, not even wanting to relate to it. I think
I've been a little na�ve. I tend to think craft is craft,
and regardless of content, craft can be learned from anyone,
but I'm starting to think that's not the case. Also, this
experience has led me to embrace my identity as a speculative
fiction writer. Not to say that I think that's my exclusive
identity, but I always thought I was a "normal" writer with
speculative elements to my work. I finally saw how foreign
my work may seem to other's eyes. So-whether from lack of
merit or lack of relevance-I add two more rejections to the
meter, one in fellowships/grants, the other in residencies/workshops.
Oh, and
I should say, speaking with the director of the New Orleans
program helped me accept the rejections quickly and move on.
When I got the last two rejections, I thought to myself "damn,
I'm going to have to do this myself," no laying back into
the arms of a writing program, no relaxing with the benefit
of a grant. And I recommitted myself to my FIRST novel, the
one I've so tired from dealing with. I think I'm on a good
track and I'm moving forward at a constant and committed pace.
KIINI'S
ACCEPTANCE/REJECTION O'METER: August 2001 - present
Acceptances: publications: 4, grants/fellowships: 0,
residencies/workshops: 0
Rejections: publications: 5, grants/fellowships: 1,
residencies/workshops: 4
KIINI'S ACCEPTANCE/REJECTION O'METER: August 2001 -
present
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Every
time I come home to New Orleans I sit in on my father Kalamu
ya Salaam's writing workshop. It's called Nommo and usually
has a diverse group of six to eight active members at every
meeting. The workshop is not for sissies. The evenings are
long and the meetings are frequent. The weekly Tuesday night
workshop starts at 6 p.m. and can easily run until midnight,
depending on how many members brought work to share. There
are poets, prose writers, critics, essayists and screenplay
writers. There are teens, folks in their twenties, thirties,
and forties. These days there aren't as many men as women,
but overall, it's an extremely dynamic group.
It's
so easy for me to forget the value of face to face contact
with writers. I was able to attend the workshop two weeks
in a row this trip. During the first evening, someone asked
me if I had something to read. "Nope," I said. "I'm disappointed,"
he said, "but I'll be here next week, will you bring something?"
I told him I'd try. Actually, I knew I could. After completing
my second novel (draft) last year (I completed it before I
departed for Brazil in January), I found myself no longer
interested in the project. It was almost as if I needed to
write the novel to learn about structure, because once it
was complete, I felt uninterested in developing it. Instead
of working on the novel, I spent my weeks in Brazil reading
voraciously. I devoured seven books in a month. And when I
returned to New York, what did I do? I picked up the first
novel, the one that has been developing itself in sporadic
growth spurts since 1995.
Anyway,
I had begun the rewrites of chapter 1, and I had just a few
more scenes to complete, so I promised myself I'd bring it
in. By the end of the night, I wanted to bring the chapter
in, not only because of my promise, but also b/c I found myself
inspired while listening to the creativity of the other writers.
There were two poems and one novel/memoir excerpt read that
first night, and each of them were powerfully criticized.
But I felt the breath of creation. I saw the result of writers
sitting around in their rooms messing with words. I was reminded
that while cyber communities are wonderful, there is a spark
of life that person-to-person contact offers... a spark that
can not be duplicated on the computer screen.
Bringing
in the chapter turned out to be a wise move. Because the "plot"
of the novel bounces all over the world, through different
time periods, I had not, in the past, been able to make the
manuscript stick together as a cohesive whole. Would my newly
conceived concept hold the novel together? Could I simply
weave in a new perspective to breathe new life into the novel?
Would readers be able to follow where I was leading? Reading
it aloud gave me access to so much. It helped me hear the
faults in the language, it helped me imagine the story as
a stranger would hear it, and it gave me the opportunity to
present my new twist to a listening audience.
They
got it. There were criticisms that were dead on, but beyond
that, they understood what I was trying to do, told me the
idea works, and pointed out the places where the idea failed
and told me exactly why. I would be lying if I said I am now
gung ho, raring to write the remainder of the novel, but I
can say that I am more confident in the direction I've chosen,
and were I involved in a live writing workshop, I'd have company
for this solitary journey I'm embarking on. But I meant to
talk about the workshop...
A major
element of the Nommo workshop is the reading presented at
the beginning of the evening. As an organizer from civil rights
and black arts movements, Kalamu is just as interested in
the ideological development of the members of the workshop
as he is in their technical development. He believes in writers
being a critical voice in our society and uses every opportunity
he has to get writers to examine the philosophies underpinning
their work, familiarize themselves with history, philosophy,
and societal realities, and for them to get intimate with
important thinkers of our world. In the workshop we've read
everything from Amlicar Cabral to Sophie's World to chapters
from writing guides on how to write powerful fiction. After
the reading, there is a brief discussion on what people got
from the reading. Then they handle house business-news about
whose been published, how members did at various readings
they participated in, news about members' other endeavors
such as school, travel, or hobbies, as well as plans for the
group to participate in cultural events, such as the upcoming
National Black Arts Festival. Then it's on to the reading.
There are no limitations on how many people can read. Anyone
who brings something can read, and each piece read gets unhurried
time for response. Responses range from comedic, to questions
on content, to challenges on technique, to arguments about
the fault lines of the piece. The Nommo Literary Society has
only three rules:
1. leave
your feelings at the door--said both in jest and seriously.
2. no preambles. just read your work.
3. (The third rule has somehow been forgotten by Kalamu, I
guess they don't use it that much. I bet the Chairman knows
it, but I didn't have the foresight to email him before sending
this report.)
The two
weeks I was there, the readings were from interviews Kalamu
did of two artist/thinkers who started in the black arts movement:
Tom Dent and John Scott. The interviews were published in
the special two-volume music issue Kalamu coedited with Jerry
Ward. Dent is an author and an organizer who influenced my
father's own involvement with theater, writing workshops,
and a commitment to developing literature in New Orleans.
Scott is a visual artist and teacher. After reading the interview
with John Scott, we discussed one particular aspect Scott
introduced in his interview. John Scott: "That's the most
difficult thing about creating anything-developing the language
with which to do it."
The concept
of language came up often in the interview, from mastering
the language of your art form to using an artistic language
that you understand. Scott pushes the concept of your artistic
medium being the language you speak. In order to create masterful,
effective art, Scott asserts, the language you create in has
to be your tongue, not something you've seen someone else
doing, not something you've been told to do.
Considering
this question of the language of art, I immediately thought
of Keturah Kendrick. Keturah is a writer and a comedian who
is (or was) a member of the Nommo workshop. After working
some time in New Orleans as a stand-up comic she decided to
move to New York to get national exposure. She did what a
comic is supposed to do: she went to the comedy clubs signed
up and did her act in the three-five minute spots allotted
to each comic. What she learned is that comedy clubs are one
of the biggest hustles around. A comedy club may have three
comedy shows on any given night. The first show will be early,
and it's filled with amateurs-those comics just trying to
build their resume and get a reel (a recording of their stand-up
act). The second show is made up of intermediate performers
and the last show of the evening consists of professionals.
No one
comes to see amateur comics except their friends and family
and, infrequently, talent scouts. So the comedy clubs charge
an $8 - $12 cover and tack on a two-drink minimum to insure
income from these comics who can't fill a room. The first
time I went to see Keturah, she was funny, but I didn't recognize
her. She played this aggressive, big mouth black woman character
with issues. If I had to identify it, I'd say she was portraying
a caricature of herself, rather than being herself. We laughed
at her set, and on the walk home I asked her why she behaved
the way she did on stage. I was disturbed to see the transformation
of this funny mild-mannered friend into this unrecognizable
creature.
Though
she didn't give me an answer that night, I got my answer a
few months later when I went to see Keturah for a second time.
By then she had performed at quite a few comedy clubs around
town. There was a talent scout in the audience this night,
and it was seen as an opportunity for the comics to break
out of the amateur field and move up in comedy. The night
seemed to go on forever. They kept calling comics up, but
none of them were Keturah. Some of the comics were funny,
some bombed, painfully. Others we just gritted our teeth and
suffered through. Right before Keturah was finally called
up, this comic troupe performed. Their act was based on grossness
and idiotic adolescent humor. They performed a mock nature
show where they were hunting a "bum" and found him by his
feces. They lured him out of his cardboard "habitat" with
beer. Their second act was a commercial between father and
son for the "manpon", a product that can be inserted in a
man's behind to prevent brown streaks in his underwear. As
fate would have it, Keturah was called up after them. Perhaps
it was a nod to Keturah's talent that she was called up last,
but on this night, being last was the worst thing that could
have happened to her. When Keturah got on stage she was angry
and hostile. Her set was bitter and even more aggressive than
the first time I saw her. The audience didn't do too much
laughing, we were terrified.
When
I went to speak to her after the show, she apologized to us.
She said while she was sitting there watching the idiocy parade
before her, she had an epiphany. She didn't belong there.
She didn't believe in anything that was presented on the stage.
The comics would come off their sets saying "I got laughs,
right? I got laughs." Keturah has a vision for her comedy.
She wants to make social commentary and expand minds. She
wants to do more than just a sex joke b/c a sex joke gets
laughs. She had done the stand-up comic thing because that
is what she was supposed to do, but now she was done with
the whole charade. She wrote about this turning point in her
career in her weekly humor column for the Louisiana Weekly.
She said she didn't know what she was going to do, but she
knew she was out of the stand-up game. She decided she had
to find a forum that would respect the type of writing and
performance she wanted to do. Her decision to do a bad set
that night at the club was even more profound because of the
talent scout's presence. When she came off the stage, the
club's booker wondered what had happened to her. "You're usually
so funny," he said.
A few
months later, Keturah got a spot in a monthly evening of women's
performance called Rivers of Honey. She said she found a place
where she could be herself and present the type of comedy
she wanted to. I was finally able to make it out last month.
I didn't realize comedy is performance art until that evening
when I went to see Keturah perform. The first thing she did
when she got to the stage was pull out a chair and sit down.
Just that simple act blew my mind, because it demonstrated
to me the constraints under which all those comics were suffering
at the comedy club. Who dictates that stand-up comedians have
to stand-up? Well, when you're an amateur and you have a very
limited amount of time to tell your jokes and get off the
stage, there aren't that many choices you make about how you
present your material to the audience.
As a
very relaxed Keturah slid into her set at Rivers of Honey,
I became aware of so many differences between the stand-up
scene and the performance scene. First of all the audience
in a comedy club-at least on the amateur level-is somewhat
hostile. We bought drinks, we paid to get in, the not-so-subtle
message radiating from the audience to the performer is "make
me laugh-NOW!" The audience at Rivers of Honey was amazingly
warm and friendly. At a stand-up club the comic is facing
a firing squad, whereas at Rivers of Honey Keturah was a warmly
welcomed member of the group. We laughed tears during her
set. She sat up on that stage as long as she felt like it
and came back to the audience when she felt it was time.
When
Keturah tells the story in retrospect, she invokes a story
Richard Pryor tells in his autobiography of a turning point
in his own career. As Keturah tells it, Pryor had been making
money as a comic emulating the Bill Cosby model. A well-mannered,
funny, nonthreatening black man. He was making money and getting
gigs, but the problem was, he wasn't being himself. One night
he was performing at a big New York event. This wasn't small
fries, there were lots of big names in the audience. He came
out on the stage, faced the audience and thought "what the
hell am I doing here?" (Richard Pryor probably thought something
a little more colorful) and walked off the stage. He said
the whole time he was presenting a clean cut image, the pimps
and the hookers were running around his head screaming to
get out. The rest is history. After going to Berkely for six
months to a year to find himself, he blazed his own path to
success with raw, honest, deeply vulnerable comedy that cut
straight to the bone.
This
whole conversation is deeply embedded in John Scott's thoughts
about artist's medium being a language. In the stand-up world,
the comics are given the language to speak, but you can't
speak your heart in someone else's tongue. Both Richard Pryor
and Keturah had to separate from what they were being told
to do as performers and do their own thing, come ruin or success.
This is relevant to all the art forms: performance poetry,
written poetry, visual arts, film. The artist has to develop
their language, their tongue, their way of speaking. It can
be an exact emulation of what some genius has done, but it
won't ring true if it ain't your tongue. As Scott says, referring
to African American artists trying to make African art, "You
can learn all the chisel marks, the symbols, and the techniques,
but you have to put a soul behind what you're doing. And the
soul you put behind it is not going to be the old soul; it's
going to be a new soul, and the creating and shaping of that
new soul is frightening as hell, because we don't know what
it's going to be."
Keturah's
performance wasn't the only soul-expanding performance of
the evening. The women who perform at Rivers of Honey are
an extremely talented bunch who have intelligent and perceptive
offerings to share with their audience. All but two of the
performers that night were singers and these women sang their
hearts out. When the performers weren't performing they were
sitting in the audience. The energy was one of sharing and
collectivity which is even unique to other communal cultural
performances. Somehow there wasn't an air of "how well did
I do?" after the performances. Each woman opened her heart
and her throat to share something beautiful with us. This
evening made me sensitive to the character of audiences in
general. While most audiences don't fall into the extreme
of a stand-up crowd, there is this air of "specialness" or
"genius" on the part of performers. Where it seems the performer's
question is "did I prove myself to be in possession of an
amazing god-given talent?" There are subtle degrees of audience
demand and performer compliance or performer showboating that
exists in every performance. And here I was faced with a more
womb-like sharing environment. A real gathering of hearts
and talent. In the moment of their performance, it seemed
to me that these women were not trying to make a mark on the
world. They weren't doing their best to do a performance the
audience would go home and talk about. They were trying to
fill up the room with energy and love... and in so doing,
they filled up my heart. I love honesty and graciousness,
and I'm always amazed when I happen upon art for arts sake,
creation for no other reason than because we exist and because
the artist loves the craft. If ever I want to experiment with
performance, Rivers of Honey would be the first place I'd
go. For me, as an artist, I'd be honored and blessed to step
into that flow of love, encouragement, talent and community.
Be well.
Be love(d).
Kiini
Ibura Salaam
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Rivers
of Honey (Every first Friday of the month)
Next one: June 7, 10:30 pm
WOW Cafe Theater
59-61 E. 4th Street
Lower East Side, NYC
ALSO:
Tananarive Due Wins National Book Award
Tananrive
Due is an African American female speculative fiction writer.
Ex-journalist, current novelist and her book THE LIVING BLOOD
won the national book award. This is a win for speculative
fiction and black fiction. THE LIVING BLOOD is a sequel to
MY SOUL TO KEEP. I read MY SOUL TO KEEP in one long gulp over
a weekend. It's not a short book, but it gets its hooks into
you and you can't stop. It's compulsive, invigorating and
exciting. I recommend both, though I prefer the first.
ALSO:
Another book of interest: THE CONTINUUM CONCEPT.
Anyone
pregnant or planning to have a child in the near future, anyone
interested in how other cultures rear children and deal with
each other, and/or human development should read: THE CONTINUUM
CONCEPT. It is an exploration of how a particular group of
native South Americans rears their children and deals with
each other as beings of choice and freewill-low rates of violence,
unheard of suicide, overall good health. It was an exciting
and intriguing read for me.
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